Today i have NDP practice. Yesterday i dunno wat really happen to myself. I cried on the bus aft *** left. Then i reach hm. Aft i bath, i cried again in my room. I can't control myself this time. I cut myself uncontrolled by scissor. I feel no pain bt just feel hurt. There was no blood. The mark was gone by nw. But 1 thing tat i am very sad of is tat *** didn't msg me either *** reply me. When i really need ***, *** wasnt there. I getting mre and mre sad. I didn't know wat to do. Should i tell *** or i should nt? I need **, I miss ***. I just need a shoulder and a hug. I'm hearing sound again.
I heard someone calling my name. I heard someone ask me to go die nw. I heard ur voice. I heard someone say tat *** dun want me anymre. I heard people scolding me. I heard lots of lots of sound tat i dun want to hear. What should i do? Kill myself? I really hate it, why did i get this illness? WHY????
*Sob* Carinna
